The Making of Brett Kavanaugh

Call it the smirk heard ’round the world.

Images of a young, white man smugly invading the space of a chanting First Nation’s Elder, while trying to goad him into a physical altercation as his friends and guardians egged him on was infuriating to anyone with a modicum of  decency or empathy.

It was that much worse, then, to know that Nathan Phillips – Vietnam Vet and Omaha tribal Elder – had received this treatment after interceding with a blessing to keep the peace between the Trump-supporting teens and a group of black protesters who were hurling insults at one another by the Lincoln Memorial.

Videos show an aggressive white teen – who would be called a thug were he black and sporting a hoodie – get closer and closer to Phillips, glaring at him and daring him to engage in any way. Soon his fellow students are mocking Phillips’ ceremonial chant, some of them dancing – all of them laughing.

Phillips was treated to the indignity of having his faith and culture cruelly mocked for his efforts to keep the peace between Trumpers and black protesters. It’s truly mind boggling.

The prep school student and his friends had just come from the ‘March For Life’ along the National Mall in Washington, D.C., as part of a sanctioned school field trip from Covington Catholic High School in Park Hills, Kentucky. It is unknown if the tax exempt school or diocese provided the MAGA hats that so many of the students were sporting, or if the students bought them as souvenirs of their trip. Regardless of their origin, students of CCH were wearing the caps with the tacit approval of staff and chaperones, who were also happy enough to listen to their charges shout ‘Build that wall!!’ and mock at length a ceremonial Native American chant.

These wankers had just come from a march purportedly celebrating the dignity of human life, and here they were mocking the value of someone else’s religious beliefs.

How these young men came to be cruelty taunting a revered Omaha tribal Elder might best approached by first accepting that this incident did not happen in a vacuum.

Covington Catholic High School has a reputation for racism, homophobia and misogyny, and the school – which is located on Dixie Highway – has an antebellum Colonel for a mascot. Because of course it does.

The school’s mission statement is shockingly sexist, referring to women and girls as not just an afterthought but by that Incel buzzword: Female.

 

ky hy eb females

 

Twitter is chock full complaints about the Bro Culture at the school.

Former CCH student Mac Duckworth details in this twitter thread how he was mercilessly bullied after he came out in 8th grade. He details years of online abuse, in person tormenting, other students refusing to respect personal space and boundaries, and the glee CCH students took in physically threatening him.

CCH students feigned surprise in 2017 when social media called them out for wearing blackface for Halloween, and posting pictures themselves smiling and laughing.

Then there is the scandal of Jake Walter, who was found guilty in his senior year of raping young woman just weeks before his 18th birthday, in 2018. The 7-foot, 300 lb basketball star-player received probation, and registered as a juvenile sex offender for a few weeks, until he became an adult. Seven months later Walter, the son of a former Cincinnati Bengal, was arrested for rape the second time in a year, this time with 2 counts of sodomy. According to court records both women he victimized were hospitalized after he choked and raped them, and laughed as he dismissed their pleas for him to stop.

These incidents all have one thing in common: CCH students sadistically finding humor in other’s pain.

Because cruelty is the point, you see.

 

indelible in the hippocampus

 

Recall, if you will, Dr. Christine Blasey Ford’s Senate testimony during Brett Kavanaugh’s SCOTUS confirmation hearing. Dr. Ford spoke clearly about Kavanaugh and his friend attempting to rape her when they were all in high school, and she was a few years younger than them. Ford spoke with great authority about the incident and what she would remember ever after: “Indelible in the hippocampus was the laughter.”

Cruelty was the point then, too.

You can draw a direct line from the coddled, white, religious prep school students who tried to intimidate a Veteran tribal Elder with smug sneers and viscous laughter all the way to Brett Kavanaugh demanding we not look at how he acted at that age because BOYS WILL BE BOYS!!!

This is the STENCH of moneyed white male privilege.

I see *so much* of Kavanaugh in these entitled, toxic young men from Kentucky.

Kavanaugh was nurtured and encouraged in an exclusionary Catholic school that encourages every one of these men to indulge in ‘Smartest Boy In The Room Syndrome’, where they know they’re better than everyone else by dint of religion, education, genetic, and sexual superiority.

When their self-imagined primacy isn’t enough to keep the insecurity wolves at bay they preen through life with the back-pocket knowledge that Daddy’s money and connections will always save them if their genetic superiority won’t.

It’s not such a surprise that a parochial school trip to advocate for women to lose their self-agency (with nary a vagina betwixt them) should end with the absolute disrespect of our First Nations’ people and their spiritual beliefs.

Don’t forget these insufferable Kavanaughs-in-training KNEW they were being filmed, and still thought this was a good idea to scream ‘BUILD THE WALL’ at an Omaha Elder, proving they’re only motivated by White Supremacy, and not any fear of terrorist illegal immigrants.

Now imagine what they’re capable of doing when they think no-one is watching.

 

then and now

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Doesn’t Play Well With Others

I was recently messaging with a friend about the fool’s errand of saying, ‘I want to keep everyone happy’.

It has NEVER been possible in the best of times to make everyone happy. These days? Pffft. 40% of the country identifies with Nazis and White Nationalists (but I repeat myself), and another good 20% just can’t be arsed to get involved with the suffering of others. These ‘Keep Everyone Happy’ folks spend great quantities of energy NOT THINKING about kidnapped brown children in cages, or that their friend’s sexuality is being legislated out of existence, or that the Press isn’t just being threatened anymore – they’re being murdered and jailed.

The most disappointing thing about Trump is not his poor behavior, but the poor behavior of our family and friends. Their Nazism or lack of will to stand up to it has translated to ruptured relationships and hurt feelings. In the last few years I’ve parted company with a good number of people I had been very close with for a long time – some of them I’d known since childhood. But, I draw the line at Fascism and Nazis.

Not one person with a moral compass is immune from this culling.

Sometimes you cull people who have become openly, virulently White Nationalists. Take my neighbor, for instance, who believes Muslims should be registered and Syrians should be put in concentration camps. Or my husband’s college friend who believes Human Rights are no longer universal because not everyone is a human being.

Sometimes people who can’t bother giving up an inch of their White Privilege, and just want you to STOP TALKING about things that make them sad or uncomfortable cull you. They ghost you because you’re Debbie Downer with all your talk about children in cages and The Geneva Convention and the UN Convention on Genocide. Can’t you just go back to posting hilarious and disgusting vintage ads featuring Spam or mayonnaise?

No. No, I can’t pretend that Trump isn’t gaslighting us every time he opens his mouth. Nor am I going to be silent about Trump delivering on the promise of state sponsored murder and the torture of children. I refuse to ignore his abusive threats to the Press that the violence will continue until the coverage improves. I will not keep my opinions to myself about this Fascist almost-Dictator who promises to violate the 1st, 2nd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th and 14th Amendments, and to end abortion, civil rights, voting rights, marriage equality and the EPA.

“Not gonna happen,” to quote George Bush the Senior.

 

Spam & Peaches

 

 

This culling of our friends and family list didn’t start on January 21, 2017. It began loooong before that, and congealed when Trump declared his candidacy, in June of 2015. Too many people have still not figured out that the radicalization of the American Alt-White movement began decades ago with the Southern Strategy, and solidified in earnest in 2010 when Mitch McConnell vowed to make Obama a one-term president by opposing ANYTHING he supported, and by silently allowing birth certificate rumors to flourish unchecked.

McConnell and Lift-Bro Ryan should have taken every opportunity to stamp out the pernicious racist rumor that Barack Obama was born in Kenya, his birth certificate was fake, and therefore he was an illegitimate president. But they, and every other member of the GOP leadership, hadn’t even the barest scrap of integrity to say, “So what? Even if Obama was born in Kenya he can still be POTUS because he’s AMERICAN citizen, being that his mother was born in Kansas. It’s in The Constitution.”

This well known fact went unspoken by the GOP, and the Alt-White pretended it didn’t exist by continually shrieking about the birf certificate!!

But, it was never about Kenya or Kansas for these folks. A black man was elected President and gave them health care against their will, and the Alt-White lost it’s collective fucking mind.

When a WOMAN had the temerity to try to use 45 years of advocacy for the disenfranchised and hard work within her own party to run for President, the Alt-White lost its collective fucking mind again. This time they were joined by a motley assortment of Brogressives who were simply FURIOUS they couldn’t have their pony, so Fuck It!! I’ll have viper, instead, and we might as well burn this bitch down, while we’re at it.

These things were all quite clear in the fall of 2016. Trump had been gaslighting and saying terrible things unabated for 16 months. Instead of people taking him seriously they were amused by him.

The more I raised my voice about how THIS IS NOT NORMAL!! The more I was either avoided or assured I was making a mountain out of a molehill.

He’s NOT going to win, and even if – by some fluke – he did, he’s not going to be able to do the things he promised. There are laws.”

Unfortunately NOBODY paid attention to what I kept harping about: If Trump wins the election the Executive, Legislative and Judicial branches would all be held by one party. There was a SCOTUS seat at stake, and thus the ENTIRE make-up of the court for the next 20 years was hanging in the balance. Not only that, McConnell had blocked nearly 1,000 of Obama’s rightful picks to open judgeship positions at all levels of the federal circuit and appeals courts.

Couldn’t ANYONE see the consequences of the GOP having unfettered control of EVERYTHING?!

I felt like Cassandra whose warnings went unheeded: The balance of power would shift too far if Trump was elected. Trump is an Abuser, and you believe an Abuser when they promise to hurt you.

 

But Her Emails Handmaids Tale

 

 

It was at that time (September of 2016) that I finally broke up with my creepy psychiatrist, and I’ve been carrying some unresolved and seriously unnecessary baggage about it ever since.

I say ‘break up’ because you have to put an immense amount of trust in someone to be able to tell them your hopes and fears. He violated my trust, though, and it became an abusive relationship in August of 2016, when he ‘jokingly’ threatened to sell my records to the paparazzi.

Yes. My psychiatrist actually threatened to sell my records to the paparazzi to make a quick buck – and then called it a joke.

I knew what he did was wrong at the time. But I ignored the fucked up dynamic of the middle-aged white male abusing his power because he was a Doctor.

It took me writing about him and what he did to me to see that he was trying to mold me and ‘fix’ me through intimidation, not help me navigate an increasingly hostile world. He abused his power by threatening to expose my deepest fears and secrets (for profit) to strangers who would ridicule me, and have undeserved access to my inner-most thoughts – and then called it a joke.

He had an idea of what I should be, and he expected me to kowtow to his notions and respond positively to the flex of his power, and capitulate to his emotional blackmail.

While it makes me feel like I need a Silkwood Shower just to write about what Dr. Blackmail did to me, it has to be given a voice. I realize I’m lucky I didn’t have a massive backslide.

The truth is that I grew up amongst a pack of abusive, rabid wolves, and it’s hard not to subconsciously pick abusive, rabid wolves with whom to associate. Even doctors.

I initially saw Dr. Blackmail in late 2014 to have medical supervision in getting off of short-term PTSD drugs another Psychiatrist had forgotten to stop, and I’d been on 18 months longer than recommended. (Whoops! Sorry about that. We good?) He was one of the only doctors who was taking patients at the time, and I jumped at the chance of getting off of the meds. It only occurs to me as I write this that every other patient I saw in Dr. Blackmail’s office was female, or with a man – presumably doing some kind of couple’s therapy. You do the math.

I got off the unnecessary PTSD drugs in just a few months, and things were SO much better. My anxiety attacks decreased by 90%, as did the visual vertigo, and the crippling panic attacks when I wanted to leave the house. My head was clearer, and my thoughts were, too. I began writing again, and resumed work on my memoirs. I even started this blog. This will be my 84th entry, and I have 11 drafts I’m still tinkering with, and I have more than 10,000 reads.

 

This about That First Post

First ever blog post, Nov 28, 2014

 

I continued seeing Dr. Blackmail because it was increasingly difficult to deal with my Mystery Illness. I needed emotional support to navigate the crushing disappointment of seeing dozens of doctors over several years, none of whom were able to diagnose the disease nor halt it symptoms. I was also grappling with the new reality that I couldn’t work, and I felt utterly useless to the world.

Dr. Blackmail REALLY WANTED to treat my appropriate grief and sadness with anti-depressants. I mean REALLY. WANTED.

No matter how many times I explained to him that I wanted nothing further to do with psych meds at that point – and ultimately *I* was the one making decisions about my health care – he would bring it up at EVERY damned appointment.

Finally I snapped at him, “Stop it. Stop asking me to take medication to change the way I think. I *LIKE* me. What you’re asking me to do is take happy pills to conform. Do you think I’m a danger to myself or others? No? Do you think I am incapable of caring for myself? No? THEN WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO CHANGE ME?!!”

His answer was always, “‘I think you’d do better if you were on something to stabilize your mood.”

Stabilize my mood.

Stabilize. My. Mood.

Stabilize.

My.

Mood.

Not to keep me safe. Not to keep others safe. Not because I was bi-polar, and in some kind of manic-depressive episode. Not because I was incapable of ascertaining reality, was hallucinating, or was hearing voices. But, because he thought it would be a great idea and best practices if I would kindly stop making such a fuss and please melt into society a bit more, and not be SO MUCH like me.

He claimed to be worried about my losing friends when I disconnected (willingly and unwillingly) from the users and abusers in my life, those uncomfortable with my illness, those who were revealing their dormant White Supremacy, and those unwilling to make a choice about the rising Nationalism. To Dr. Blackmail the most important thing wasn’t moral boundaries, but how many ‘friends’ I had.

Dr. Blackmail planted a bullshit seed that is at the heart of a continuing problem: I think I am a social misfit for having a highly developed sense of morality – and acting on it.

Sometimes when I block someone or (even bigger) let go of a hurtful person I’ve been close to in real life, I hear that asshole’s nagging voice about how when disappointing people leave my life it’s bad and entirely on my shoulders, and can be treated with medication.

That fucker made me question myself until today. No more. Today I let go of what I started when I walked away.

The proverbial Straw That Broke The Camel’s Back that caused me to leave his practice happened one day in September of 2016, probably a month after Dr. Blackmail threatened to sell my medical records. I was trying to explain how I felt like Cassandra, and this terrible thing was coming with Trump’s election. His response was to laugh at me good and hard and say through his gales, “Claudia, stop! Don’t be ridiculous. Trump’s NOT going to win!!”

Super professional behavior, no?

I blew my top, yelled at him for about 15 minutes and left, never to return. I’m certain my file is a shit show, and I regret not turning him into the state for his egregious behavior.

 

I think about Dr. Blackmail occasionally, and the thoughts that keep bubbling up are:

1) Why did you keep trying to medicate me if my only problem is ‘Doesn’t play well with others’?

2) WHY is it imperative everyone like me?

3) Who fucking threatens their patient’s privacy as a ‘joke’?

The inescapable truth was that more I pointed out the rising misogyny and institutionalized sexism that’s impossible to escape in America, the more I was told BY MY PSYCHIATRIST that I needed try to fit in harder. Complaining about online bullying and abuse by men led to being told I needed to stop arguing so much. When I became incensed about people who had been using me for years I was made to feel guilty for abandoning ‘my friends’.

The answer to my increasing distress at society treating me as inconsequential wasn’t to work on my fears through mindfulness and meditation – but, rather, to medicate me into compliance like a Stepford Wife.

We’re stuck in the 50s, and I was getting the modern-day treatment for Hysteria. This year’s pills aren’t Thorazine, but the aim is the same:

 

Sexist Thorazine

 

Medicate the FUCK out of the Little Lady and she won’t complain when she realizes society is stacked against her!!

“Holy shit, John. I just realized I wasted the best years of my life wiping noses and asses, and having your slippers ready when you walked in the door. Of course, I was useful during WWII when I worked in the factories and literally made and brought home the bacon. But THAT went down the memory hole, and I’m supposed to pretend self-agency wasn’t wonderful… What do I do NOW?!!”

“Open wide, Martha – you’ll never remember a thing.”

 

Keeping everyone happy is the least of my worries these days, because I’m really okay with the label ‘Doesn’t Play Well With Others’ when it comes to Nazis taking away my rights, and the rights of those I love.

Keeping everyone happy means you have to have the moral center of a marshmallow that gives whenever pushed. The ‘push’ right now is Fascism that’s quickly devolving into a Dictatorship. Being polite about our rapid descent into a White Nationalist totalitarian state means you agree with it, plain and simple.

There is no neutral position regarding Nazis – no one gets to play Switzerland.

I may have lost friends and loved ones to the rise of Fascism, and the lack of will to fight it. But good friends and loved ones who have stood the test of time are ever so dear to me, and make life lighter.

I’ve joined forces with some incredible new friends: Wonderful people who share the same ideals, and we value all lives – not just Blue or White. Together we all keep each other sane, and reassure each other that the gaslighting is happening, and NO, this isn’t normal.

You know what? Not a one of us Plays Well – and our voices will be heard while we have each other’s backs.

 

Dan Rather Decency

 

 

 

Red Caps and Vanifestos

Let’s take stock – shall we?

The same day that 45* proudly declared himself a Nationalist in front of cheering fans, the first of 14 bombs attempting to assassinate Trump’s political adversaries arrived at the home of Holocaust survivor, liberal activist and billionaire philanthropist George Soros.

Over the next 5 days assassination attempts were made against 2 former presidents, a former Vice President, a former Senator and Secretary of state, a former First Lady, a former head of the CIA, a former Attorney General, 2 sitting Senators (a man and woman, both of color), a Congresswoman (of color), an outspoken movie star, and another Jewish billionaire philanthropist – ALL of them Democrats.

Even as the FBI assured the public that these were, indeed, very real bombs that were meant to detonate but were built poorly, Trump’s Red Caps and Russian Bots were pushing the conspiracy theory that these were hoax devices the victims were having delivered to themselves.

Fox News spent the week regurgitating the conspiracy of fake bombs, each host putting their own fetid spin on it. They made things exponentially worse by allowing Lou Dobbs to continually refer to ‘Globalists’, that oh-so-charming Nazi dog-whistle for Jews. Fox put things into overdrive when they allowed Dobbs and his guest to push the conspiracy theory of a ‘Soros-controlled State Department’ that was funding the caravan of Central Americans seeking asylum so that they would invade the United States. And why not? The President of the United States was tweeting all the same things!!

The morning after Soros received the bomb, House Majority Leader Kevin McCarthy (R – Nationalist) took a cue from Trump and pinned a tweet to the top of his Twitter feed that warned his followers not to allow 3 Jewish billionaires- Soros, Steyer and Bloomberg – to buy the election.

 

Kevin McCarthy Soros Tweet

 

Sadly lost in the frenzy and terror of the multiple assassination attempts of high level Democratic political figures was the actual assassination of 2 African Americans by 51-year-old white supremacist Gregory Bush. Minutes before he shot Maurice Stallard inside a Kroger supermarket and Vickie Jones in the parking lot, Bush unsuccessfully attempted to gain access to the First Baptist Church of Jeffersontown. After murdering Jones and Stallard – who was shopping for poster board with his grandson – Bush came across another white man holding a gun and told him, “You don’t shoot me and I won’t shoot you – white people don’t shoot white people.” Stallard and Jones’ deaths were nearly anonymous, the country numb to the story of yet another white supremacist murdering people because of the color of their skin.

 

 

Van 2

 

5 days after the first bomb was delivered the FBI arrested a 56-year-old Florida man, Cesar Sayoc, and they impounded his Vanifesto, which was plastered with Pro-Trump daddy-issue stickers, and pictures of the people he’d sent bombs to framed in red sniper cross-hairs.

The part of the nation that still has a dram of sanity breathed a sigh of relief at Sayoc’s arrest. But the relief was short lived as Trump began tweet-whining about how the “bomb thing” had slowed down momentum for the GOP at the mid-terms. As the day ground on 45* made it quite clear he saw no reason to reach out to any of the victims in solidarity. There would be no phone calls, no condemnation of the loss of civility in the Shining City On The Hill, not even a half-assed tweet.

Later, in Charlottesville, NC, at yet ANOTHER of his ego-driven, lie infested rallies, Trump reluctantly mouthed a few words from the teleprompter about unity before smoothly segueing into leading the crowd in a rousing chant of ‘Lock Her Up.’

Trump’s petulant subtext to not condemning the violence perpetrated by Sayoc was heard loud and clear at all levels of the Nationalist Party, and not one prominent member among them called for a cooling of rhetoric, a more civil election, or even condemned the attempted assassinations of:

Barack and Michelle Obama

Bill and Hillary Clinton

Joe Biden ( sent 2 bombs)

Senator Corey Booker

Senator Kamala Harris

Congresswoman Maxine Waters (sent 2 bombs)

CNN Personnel

John Brenan

Eric Holder

George Soros

Tom Steyer

Robert De Niro

 

Worse than the deafening silence about the attempted assassinations of political adversaries was the false equivalency argument that Red Cap Nationalists began circulating just minutes after Sayoc was arrested: Democrats had been uncivil, too, and being politely refused service at a restaurant or heckled by the governed in public is as bad as being mailed a bomb intended to kill you because you are a Democrat.

By Saturday morning a mentally exhausted America was ready for some Halloween fun and an afternoon of College Football. Instead, anyone with an ounce of humanity was horrified to find that yet another middle-aged white supremacist had attempted a mass assassination – only this time he was successful.

A Bris was under way in the Tree of Life Congregation synagogue in Pittsburgh, PA. During this holy ceremony, where an 8-day-old baby boy is named, 46-year-old Robert Bowers entered the sanctuary screaming, “All Jews must die,” and opened fire on the celebrants with an AR-15.

Killed for simply being Jewish were:

Joyce Fienberg 75

Richard Gottfried 65

Rose Mallinger 97

Jerry Rabinowitz 55

David & Cecil Rosenthal, brothers 54 & 59

Sylvan & Bernice Simon, husband 86 & wife 84

Daniel Stein 72

Melvin Wax 88

Irving Younger 69

May their memories be a blessing.

 

 

Robert Bower Kike Tweet

 

It’s true: Robert Bowers was not a Trump fan. Nope. He resented Trump because the Jews hadn’t been rounded up, yet. Trump wasn’t bad because of his ceaseless bigotry, sexism, racism and Hate of Other – Trump was bad because he didn’t go far enough in his ethnic cleansing!!

Not all 3 white supremacist zealots were MAGA loving Red Hats, but we do know several things they had in common:

All were middle aged

All were convinced of their genetic superiority

All were radicalized to hate the OTHER (Blacks, Jews, Gays, Liberals)

All stated their bigotry, racism and intolerance of ‘the Left’ online

All had giant Red Flags that authorities ignored

All of them intended to kill their subjects to achieve a goal of societal purity

All of them were taken alive

And NONE of them will be charged as a domestic terrorist (Surprise, surprise)

There is one other VERY important thing all 3 of these assassins had in common: Their susceptibility to Trump’s particularly potent form of Stochastic Terrorism.

 

 

Stochastic Terrorist

 

Stochastic Terrorism uses mass communications to incite violence by the disaffected, and Twitter and cable TV happily churn Trump’s toxic messages out 24-hours-a-day, consequence free.

Trump Rage Tweets at 3 in the morning to create chaos. Not only do his Rage Tweets confuse and grind down those who resist, it energizes those on the edge to act violently.

Trump knows continual chaos is a means to control.

That’s why he he held two rallies in the hours after the massacre at the synagogue, when they still didn’t know how many had died. One was supposed to be a speech to the teens from FFA that veered off into a stump speech for the local candidate and was jammed full of his usual rally stories and lies. At the official rally later that night in Illinois – when the coroners had not yet bagged all of the bodies in the sanctuary – Trump lead his crowd of cheering knuckle-draggers in a chant to ‘Lock Him Up’ when he mentioned George Soros, the assassination attempt victim and man accused of having broken absolutely NO laws.

Let me repeat that: Trump directed a jeering mob to scream ‘Lock Him Up!!’ about a man accused of doing nothing illegal.

Understand this: Trump is a narcissist whose cruelty knows no bounds, and he will never stop ginning up the fringe element into perpetrating terror attacks that are not being called terror attacks. We’re being gaslighted about domestic terror because these terrorists are a useful mob to Trump. If they call them terrorists then Trump’s regime has to put a stop to them now. If Trump calls them very passionate people (as he called his supporters who beat up a Hispanic homeless man in Boston) then he can pretend to bear no responsibility for their actions.

But Trump knows exactly what he’s doing, in the same instinctive, merciless way a shark hunts. He knows, and it delights him on a cellular level, like a shark with a full belly.

 

Remember that Trump does not see anyone but himself as human, and he will accept no appeal to logic or goodness. He breaks things for fun – and then breaks the pieces. His decisions are made solely on what fills his pockets, pleases them in the moment, or how best he can punish during one of his many rages.

Expect Trump to relentlessly rally his rabid Red Caps with their Vanifestos. Expect more acts of violence from domestic terrorists against The Other. They’ve all been emboldened by his continued attacks on any perceived enemy.

Trump was given a chance to put the brakes on things a bit after this insane week, but instead of leading the nation in even the most perfunctory mourning he doubled down and went after Tom Steyer less than 24 hours after Bower tried to finish what Trump started, and 48 hours after he received a bomb

When the internet reacted negatively to his unseemly attack-tweet, and suggested his behavior was promoting discord and violence, Trump furiously doubled down yet again, attacking the press.

Trump will not stop until he has his Reichstag Fire, and then the real fury begins.

 

Ginger or Mary Ann?

A number of people have mused that alleged Russia spy Maria Butina wasn’t pretty enough to be the Honey Trap she appears to be. Me included.

I realized that I was judging her ability on her looks – something that absolutely infuriates me.

After I got done feeling horrible about my shallowness I got treated to a heaping helping of humility, when I realized that when I was in show business I specialized in the very same Girl-Next-Door persona that so many men found irresistible in Maria.

I’m under no illusions that I was beautiful. I was cute. I was personable and quick witted. But, I did not have the je ne sais quoi it took to be a high fashion model.

 

Claudia Head Shot 2 (2)

 

 

I didn’t model – I did print work.

There’s a HUGE difference in how those are viewed – and paid – within the industry. One sells Haute Couture and high cost parfum, the other does back-to-school ads for the Sunday newspaper inserts. (Kids, go ask your parents what a newspaper is – then ask them what an insert is)

I was nowhere near pretty enough to be a model, but that didn’t stop men from the industry who were 30 years my senior from asking to me to dinner at some swanky restaurant so they could be seen with a cute young thing on their arm.

I accepted more than one invitation (Le Dome on a Friday night? Hell yes!!), but not a one single man got even a kiss. They knew it up front.

I met them at the restaurant, and once there repeated what I said when we made the date: Nothing – NOTHING – will happen after this meal. Zero, nada, no chance of anything. We were having chaste dinner, and if he ever expected to have the pleasure of my company ever again he would keep his hands to himself and enjoy the sparkling conversation.

They knew the rules up front, and most asked for a second date. It was all about their ego. They knew their age, but the chance to wine and dine a precocious nubile woman trained to smile professionally was enough to make them set money on fire for oysters at Gladstone’s in Malibu.

 

Claudia Head Shot 1

 

Maria’s job was to appeal to the GOP marks who liked Mary Ann more than Ginger – Kompromat likely gleaned by hacking their browser history and seeing what kind of porn they liked.

The truth is something I learned before I could legally drink the bottles of champagne purchased for me at The Brown Derby and Chasen’s: Some men will trip over themselves for a woman – wholesome OR glamor girl – as long as she appears to share his interests (be they Hollywood, Politics or Gunz) and simply listens to him with a smile on her face.

 

Maria Butina Umbrella

Shit Sandwich Zeitgeist

 

 

The defining moment of the 2016 election was when America rolled its collective eyes and groaned at Trump grotesquely ridiculing New York Times reporter Serge Kovaleski’s physical disability, in November of 2015.

The day before Trump got thousands of people to roar with laughter at his mimicking the effects of Kovalski’s disease I wrote the following:

I am scared of Trump’s cult of personality.

I have at least 3 friends who support this asshole, and nothing he says seems to deter them. One is a staunch abortion supporter who is now willing to negotiate on it because she thinks he tells it like it is. Another is married to a Mexican national – and doesn’t have a problem with what he says about Mexicans. The last has always been conservative, but has outright endorsed our registering and forcing Muslims to wear ID badges in public. She doesn’t have a problem with it, and says that not one Muslim anywhere can be trusted. Although Trump has declared bankruptcy 5 times she is convinced he’s a terrific businessman.

Trump is a pathological liar who released bogus crime stats from a fictitious company one day, and he defended his supporters beating a protester at the next. The day after that he fabricated a video clip of ‘thousands and thousands of Muslims in New Jersey cheering the WTC falling’.

In the past any one of these things would have sunk his candidacy, and he would have skulked away in shame. But nothing this man says seems to affect him negatively. The loonier he gets the more his base laps it up. He’s proposing fascism, suspending the Constitution and state sponsored torture – and he’s more popular than ever!

But, I’ll tell you what really scares me: The people who are silent about this.

I’ve accepted that his supporters will agree with anything that falls out of his pie hole – but, the ones who are just ‘meh’ about the whole thing are pissing me off. When that dentist killed Cecil the lion the internet exploded. Trump says register a religious minority? It gets a collective yawn. No screaming about the Constitution, or how it’s just morally wrong. Just roaring silence.

That’s what simultaneously scares and pisses me off. All it takes for evil to prevail is for good people to do nothing.

The next day Trump hit for the cycle by topping Racism, Bigotry and Xenophobia with Ableism.

 

Side By Side Trump Kovaleski

 

 

America’s reaction to this unthinkable indignity revealed the ugly zeitgeist of the USA, and exactly what people had already decided they would put up with.

I already knew that Trump would take the nomination the morning after he announced his candidacy because he hadn’t been drubbed out of the GOP contest overnight for calling Mexicans rapists. Friends and online acquaintances bet me money and beers that would NEVER happen. But, I knew better.

But this?

This was fucking frightening.

I could see that if the response to calculated cruelty and bullying was a chuckle or a roll of the eyes, then we as a nation were capable of truly awful things.

I was right.

We’ve banned Muslims from traveling here and Trans people from serving in the military. We have heaped scorn on our allies while starting needless trade wars. We’ve flirted with both nuclear war and Dictators. WE TEAR CHILDREN FROM THEIR FAMILIES AND LOCK THEM IN CONCENTRATION CAMPS!!!

Trump supporters have been consistent in their bobble headed agreement with his increasing vitriol, genocide, and naked ambition to be a Fascist President-For-Life. I expect no less.

But the rest who can’t be bothered to get involved? Oh – you’ve made a choice. Make no mistake. But you’re all too much of a coward to admit it to the rest of us that you agree with what’s going on. You know a Russian Cyber Invasion installed that madman. You can see the extent of the corruption and crimes against humanity, nature and civil rights. You’re aware we’re violating the Geneva Convention on kidnapping and torture, and the UN Convention on Genocide. And you’re all fucking OKAY with it!!

Fuck the myth of the ‘silent middle’.

There is no middle ground on Fascism, dictators or genocide. The ‘silent middle’ are just people too lazy to put on the Party arm band on until it’s a legal dictate.

You don’t refuse a shit sandwich because you’re not hungry, and you don’t eat it to be polite.

Oh – and don’t imagine for a moment that if you have a bit of bread stashed away it means you’ll eat even one less spoonful of shit.

 

RNC Laura Ingraham 3

 

 

Boiling Frogs

In the last 6 weeks I’ve awakened in my bed at home only 13 times. The rest of the time has been split between Canada and the cabin. Different patterns and places cause you to see things from a different perspective, including and especially a lack of internet connectivity for days at a time.

Being without internet for long stretches means when I check back in it’s a virtual laundry list of ‘What the fuck am I reading?’ to ‘I remember when this would have been too absurd for The Onion’.

In short: It was only when I got back into the internet pot did This Little Froggy realize how HOT the water has gotten.

Let’s cut out all the noise (like rage-tweets demanding Sessions fire Mueller) and just look at the last day:

  1. Our Intelligence Agencies held a presser to stress the seriousness of the continuous attacks by Russia on our midterm elections. Mere hours later 45* slurred his way through another Fuhrer rally, calling that announcement a HOAX.
  2. Press Secretary Sarah Sanders refused to say during a press briefing that the Press is not the enemy of the people.
  3. Network television has apparently *just* discovered Q-Anon and their rabid willingness to become violent over their unhinged world view, and to keep Trump in power while thanking Russia.
  4. We’re STILL violating the UN Convention on Genocide, and the Geneva Convention on kidnapping, as well as torture, and the Trump Regime is now insisting the ACLU be responsible for finding the deported parents before families can be reunited. A third employee of the child concentration camps has been arrested for sexually assaulting multiple prisoners. Where the hell are the girls? It’s amazing how quickly this atrocity has dropped off of the A Section in news blocks.
  5. Enjoy your NEW $60 Billion in Chinese Tariffs while you mull over June new housing starts being down 12+%, new homes sales dropped 5+%, and only 150,000 jobs were added last month.

This dynamic is simply not sustainable.

Heroin Junkies and Trump Humpers

We are in a Constitutional Crisis, and this last week has laid bare the truth that Putin stole the presidency for Trump, with an assist from billionaires who have been buying our government for the last few decades.

Trump’s unhinged Rage Tweets this morning point to dark days ahead. Dare I say the words Civil war?

We’re really already there emotionally, and isn’t this all that matters?

We’re already at war with each other – there’s not a one of us who hasn’t seen a loved one drink Trump’s Kool-Aid. I have a neighbor of 16 years who hasn’t spoken to me since 2015 because I dared to tell her that putting Muslims in internment camps was morally wrong and violated the Constitution.

Quite simply: Trump Humpers live in a reality of their own making where inconsistencies abound and facts are discarded. A reality flush with conspiracies, and where a porn star who was paid $130K in hush money is lying about having an affair with Trump, AND he has every right to sue her for $20 million for talking about the affair they didn’t have.

You cannot reason someone out of something they didn’t reason themselves into, and there is no negotiating with people who aren’t just willfully ignorant, but aggressively wrong.

Trump Humpers delight in cognitive dissonance and nothing makes them happier than calling up down, just to see the look on your face. They will NEVER let go of this new reality. Never. They are too far invested in their flat-earth, fact free existence. They are as hopeless as a heroin junky.

The ideological clash among Americans is intractable – there is no way to compromise: Either you believe in equality for all, or you are actively working to deny people their rights, and turn the clock back to the Reconstruction era. There is no middle ground.

Add to that the reality that Trump is making the office of President into a dictatorship. Make no mistake: Trump does not intend to leave the office, and intends to install Ivanka after him.

His goal is unvarnished and laid bare for all to see. I don’t know if the Presidency will ever recover, and surely not in my lifetime.

I will be surprised if Trump allows the midterms to proceed, and he will likely use the excuse of ‘Russian meddling’ to suspend them – and Trump Humpers will nod with glazed eyes, greedily accepting this new reality like the junkies they are.

It’s time to accept that Trump recognizes no rules or laws but his own. To continue to deny this is dangerous and dabbles in Trump Humper wishful thinking.

It’s time to face the bitter cup before us: The Constitution no longer holds force in this country, and America is now a fascist authoritarian regime.

To make that horrifying reality worse – we are under daily attack by Putin, and Trump refuses to stop him. Putin has control of our power grid, our water processing plants and our aviation facilities -he could cripple us with a keystroke. We are at his mercy – and he has none. Yet, somehow people think he can’t control our voting machines, or he hasn’t been manipulating us to fight each other. Putin is like the villain in Stephen King’s novel Needful Things – and he’s just getting warmed up. Of course Putin was assisted in his role by Roger Ailes and Fox Spews, who tuned up the crowd for a decade and a half.

We were invaded by Russia with GOP assistance. Putin has the GOP’s peckers in his pocket through blackmail via the RNC email hack, and laundered cash from the NRA. He especially owns McConnell and Ryan because they direct most of those monies. That’s why they take no action against either Trump or Putin. We have traitors in all levels of the government.

Putin, the Mercers, the Koch brothers, and about 400 other people are using Trump to Balkanize the United States of America. They are terrifyingly close to getting their wish of having the US be a geographical collection of fiefdoms based on natural resource extraction.

These people produce nothing, and only seek to gorge on the riches of the earth, its people, and ultimately each other – they are an insatiable ouroboros. They’re sick, and they’re in charge. Doubtless they’ve been told they’ll have their place at the Oligarch’s table when America is in flames. I don’t know about you, but I can smell smoke.

Wrap your head around this: Rexxon Valdez Tillerson, the man responsible for unfettered greed and despoiling the planet with his 3 decades in Big Oil was *too liberal* for Trump. A man who raped the earth and built his fortune on pollution and misery was simply not extreme enough for Trump.

That is how far the Overton Window has been pushed to the right.

That we are not meeting in the streets, but are sitting stunned tells me bad things are to come. The fuse is burning, and the backlash will be like a big earthquake instead of 3 mild ones that take the pressure off of the fault.

Trump is fighting like a cornered animal, and he’s even more dangerous now than he’s ever been. He will do things that will create chaos in a way that will make the last year look like comedic relief.

He is capable of anything – and I do mean ANYTHING.

I could see a time in the not too distant future when states like California refuse to remit their federal tax monies because Trump does something to try to ruin them the way he has done to hundreds of people. Think Puerto Rico-like damage on the mainland inflicted by him. He is entirely capable of killing his own people BECAUSE HE’S DONE IT BEFORE.

I think it’s time we review 10 Absolutes About Abusers:

  1. You aren’t human – you’re expendable chattel without rights
  2. Your opinion, wants and needs are punishable offenses
  3. You are expected to follow rules and display manners that they deny exist
  4. You will NEVER get them to acknowledge facts
  5. They will never, ever, EVER admit they are wrong
  6. They will steal from you while insisting you’re a duplicitous thief
  7. They will lie so boldly and confidently that you will question your sanity
  8. They enjoy your pain even more when you tell them how much it hurts
  9. They will not stop until they control you completely and capriciously
  10. Anything they can’t control completely they will ceaselessly try to destroy

It’s crucial for you to burn these into your brain, because things are coming down to the wire. It’s not long until the powder keg blows, and it is vital to remember the value you have to Trump, his Humpers, the 400 and Putin: None.

It is time for us all to accept what is happening to America – for us to deal with the reality we’re in, not the one we want to be in.

Courage to us all.